Things I want to remember

I wrote in my journal every single day of high school. It's the only time I've been a faithful journal writer. However, most of it is completely ridiculous and about crushes or something. Now during such an important and wonderful time of my life, the only journal I keep is this blog. I'm realizing as I'm watching Annika grow up that I don't remember what Caleb was like at her age and am forgetting things so fast. When they happen I think I'll remember them forever and then I forget so fast. I want to take a quick moment this mother's day and write down some of the things I hope never to forget:

--watching Caleb run down the hallway with his fine hair flying around and a huge grin on his face. I want to remember the look of how he runs now as a toddler and that complete look of joy on his face.

--the fun and wonderful way Caleb communicates now. The other day he was describing a shirt that a friend made him for his birthday. He said, "Drew's mom built it for me." Isn't it so create to use the word built since he doesn't know the word sew that well?

--the way Caleb dances when we have dance parties.

--the way Annika looks up at me. How am I going to remember this? I love it and don't even know how to describe it. I'm hoping that by just writing it I'll remember how her deep eyes look and the content look in her face.

--The feel of Annika sleeping against me.

--The way Caleb walks. His gait is just so cute.

--The high voice Caleb uses when talking to Annika. He is so sweet and wants to be gentle. (Then of course, he gets crazy--but I want to remember his gentle moments)

--The way Caleb pretends to talk on the phone and who he thinks to talk to. He said he was calling Kathy Parker, our relator, when Andy was making phone calls to contractors. How smart is that? :)

--Today during church I told him that the sacrament was to help us remember Jesus. For some reason he was very reverent and attentive of what was going on during sacrament today. However, he ususally uses a fairly loud voice to talk and as I was telling him he said, "Thinking of Jesus" and the people in front of us smiled. I loved hearing him say that and the way he watched the sacrament getting blessed and passed.

--"Good catches" in the bathtub. He "falls down" and catches himself in the tub.

--his laugh

--her smile that infuses her whole face and especially her eyes

--rocking either of them

I hope I will take more time to record things so that I won't forget. I was trying to think of how and when Caleb started talking and I realized how fuzzy it all is and it's only been a year or so. I want to remember it all. I am so thankful to be a mother and I love my kids so much!